Here's another journal entry for your reading pleasure (or displeasure. So long as you read it, I'm not too picky). This is more recent, from January 2012. Let's jump right in, shall we?
How fragile we are. So easily betrayed by our own trust. Why do others' lies give us such pain? Surely, they don't affect us all that much.
Just words, I should say. But somehow, they can. They can hurt more than any physical grievance. That doesn't seem right. How is it that believing a person, and then retroactively discovering their lies, hurts?
Just words. Is it the insincerity that hurts? Or, perhaps, it's our self-worth. Maybe, in seeing that we aren't worth the truth, we lose the same measure of esteem in ourselves.
Perhaps the betrayal of those who called themselves "friend", "loved one", we lose confidence in the ability to believe that anyone will ever be truthful, and that we will always be surrounded by acquaintances, never truly close to anyone.
Why become old and bitter? We ought to be careless and carefree as long as we last.
Everyone lies, so stop trusting. Everyone hurts you, so don't let them in. The world is cold to you, so be cold right back to the bastard. I won't let this world bring me down. And I will no longer allow interpersonal relationships to do it either.
If I'm going to be broken, it will be on my own terms.
Glorious, and in flames.
Build my boat.
Raven
People do not always lie. Everyone HAS lied. It's something children teach themselves early in development; to be able to get their way around most things. But they can be taught that this is the wrong way to be and find other, less crappy ways to get to them.
ReplyDeletePeople who don't learn that early on will often continue lying through their life, yes, but it can still be taken out of you. In my own case, I literally woke up one morning and thought "enough lies!"
Why do we really need to lie? I imagine it's probably some ancient survival instinct, like most the things we do. But you don't have to put yourself down to the level of a wild animal. We can find intelligent ways to bypass it... and can often be praised just for being up front with problems, rather than wriggling around them.
So yes, people lie, a lot... But don't lose trust in people until they actually give reason to. and don't lose faith that they can change too, if they are so willing.